JD and I have friends that have been anxiously awaiting the arrival of their twin daughters. They went through fertility treatments and on their third IUI they had success and found out they were going to have twins. That is news that I always hoped to hear, in reality I still hope to hear even though it won't be me that carries those twins, most likely.
They went into the hospital on Wednesday to be induced since the girls didn't come on their own. I just found out this morning that C had to have an emergency c-section this morning after laboring all day yesterday and through the night and immediately after delivery had no measurable pulse and had to receive 5 units of blood and be transferred to the ICU at another hospital. Thankfully she is doing better now and is even awake but what a terrifying thing to have happen to you when it should be one of the happiest days of your life and then have it take such a dramatic turn in the other direction. From all indications both girls are doing well. I work at the hospital where they were delivered and I am so glad I will be working tonight and will hopefully get to see J and meet their daughters and before they go home.
As I have been keeping up on what has been going on with J and C this morning via Facebook and the events that have transpired in the last few hours for them I can't help but think again that I am glad I don't get get choose my trials. This is certainly not one that I would choose. I actually mentioned to some of my co-workers last week that I am learning to be grateful that we are adopting rather than continuing to pursue fertility treatments because of the things that I have seen some of these moms go through in the few months that I have worked on the mom/baby unit. This is the second time I have seen a new mom go to the ICU following an emergency c-section, obviously the odds are rare since I have seen many, many new moms without complications. I remember that the Lord works in mysterious ways and obviously I have to be taught in different ways to appreciate the blessings and trials that I have.
Until next time...
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Adoption- Step 1
JD and I went to Provo to the LDS Family Services adoption orientation meeting last Wednesday only to find out that we can't work with that office because we live in Pleasant Grove. We then went to the meeting at the American Fork office on Friday. I'm kind of glad we were able to attend both meetings because while the information was basically the same, the way it was presented and what they spent time focusing on was different at each office.
This morning I drove over the orientation paperwork to the office in American Fork- so that means our journey with adoption has "officially" started. They will now send a letter to our bishop for his recommendation, we will then be assigned a caseworker and after they receive the letter back from the bishop we will have what is called an intake interview with the caseworker and get the next batch of paperwork to complete. There are quite a few things that we need to get done or gathered prior to this next batch of paperwork being turned in. Birth certificates, marriage certificate, fingerprints for background checks, family pictures, a new blog set up to be shared with birth families (and really anyone else that would like to take a peek at it).
We also need to start writing our letter to birth families that will introduce us to them- no pressure to want that to be just right. The one thing I keep remembering is that birth mothers/families aren't looking for perfection we just need to be who we are and the Lord will take care of the rest.
Since this entry has taken me almost two weeks to write we have since met with Bishop Lawyer (we have been so blessed to have wonderful bishops since we have been married) to go over questions that he needed some extra information from us to complete. He was going to mail the letter back to LDS Family Services (LDSFS) yesterday, so I can only assume we should be hearing back from LDSFS this week sometime.
We still haven't started the birth family letter but I have some rough drafts running through mind- let's just say my focus isn't always on school but very often on the things we need to do to finish our paperwork in record time and then be prepared to welcome a child or children into our home. We have started cleaning out the third bedroom in our townhouse and cleaning out extra junk, errr I mean treasures, that are collecting dust around the house. It feels good to get rid of some of this stuff.
This morning I ordered the birth certificates and marriage certificate that we will need to turn in with our next set of paperwork. Next, doctor appointments for both us for a checkup and completing the next batch of paperwork we are given at our intake appointment. We are also hoping to be able to attend the Adoption Training in October that is a requirement of LDSFS but it all hinges on our intake interview. This is quite a journey and we are so excited to be adding to our family through adoption
This morning I drove over the orientation paperwork to the office in American Fork- so that means our journey with adoption has "officially" started. They will now send a letter to our bishop for his recommendation, we will then be assigned a caseworker and after they receive the letter back from the bishop we will have what is called an intake interview with the caseworker and get the next batch of paperwork to complete. There are quite a few things that we need to get done or gathered prior to this next batch of paperwork being turned in. Birth certificates, marriage certificate, fingerprints for background checks, family pictures, a new blog set up to be shared with birth families (and really anyone else that would like to take a peek at it).
We also need to start writing our letter to birth families that will introduce us to them- no pressure to want that to be just right. The one thing I keep remembering is that birth mothers/families aren't looking for perfection we just need to be who we are and the Lord will take care of the rest.
Since this entry has taken me almost two weeks to write we have since met with Bishop Lawyer (we have been so blessed to have wonderful bishops since we have been married) to go over questions that he needed some extra information from us to complete. He was going to mail the letter back to LDS Family Services (LDSFS) yesterday, so I can only assume we should be hearing back from LDSFS this week sometime.
We still haven't started the birth family letter but I have some rough drafts running through mind- let's just say my focus isn't always on school but very often on the things we need to do to finish our paperwork in record time and then be prepared to welcome a child or children into our home. We have started cleaning out the third bedroom in our townhouse and cleaning out extra junk, errr I mean treasures, that are collecting dust around the house. It feels good to get rid of some of this stuff.
This morning I ordered the birth certificates and marriage certificate that we will need to turn in with our next set of paperwork. Next, doctor appointments for both us for a checkup and completing the next batch of paperwork we are given at our intake appointment. We are also hoping to be able to attend the Adoption Training in October that is a requirement of LDSFS but it all hinges on our intake interview. This is quite a journey and we are so excited to be adding to our family through adoption
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Work, School and Adoption
I started school again last Wednesday. It is going to be a fantastic semester! I am taking Anatomy and Physiology. Before you comment that I'm crazy for taking these two classes together- I already know! It is going to be a lot of hard work, let there be no mistake about it but I have great professors and my sister and I are taking the classes "together". By together I mean she is also taking the classes at the same school (Salt Lake Community College) but from different professors so we will be able to bounce ideas off each other and study together- at least a little bit.
JD continues to stay busy at work and with the freelance jobs that he works on from home. He is such a hard worker and I appreciate him so much. He is such a wonderful provider and support to me. He is constantly studying new programming languages that will help add depth to his skills and make him more marketable. He plans on returning to school eventually and getting his Master's degree in Computer Science. He likes the program at BYU so it's a good thing we live in Utah County- at it appears we will be for awhile. As of now, it will probably not happen until I am done with my nursing degree or until he finds a job that has tuition reimbursement to help pay for the cost.
And finally...we are thrilled and anxious to be meeting with LDS Family Services on September 7 for an adoption orientation meeting. That's right we are going to adopt. We aren't sure what to expect except that we will get the paperwork to start filling it out. It can take up to a year and more to have a child placed but we are looking forward to the road ahead and the experiences we will have and the opportunity to meet birth mothers and welcoming a baby into our home.
I have the unique opportunity to occasionally take care of birth mothers placing their babies for adoption at the hospital and it never short of extraordinary seeing the love those women have for their babies and what a sacrifice they are making to give those children a better life. I am so grateful that adoption is an option for us and that we will be starting the process soon. So with all of that said we would appreciate your prayers and letting anyone you may know that we want to add to our family through adoption.
Until next time...
JD continues to stay busy at work and with the freelance jobs that he works on from home. He is such a hard worker and I appreciate him so much. He is such a wonderful provider and support to me. He is constantly studying new programming languages that will help add depth to his skills and make him more marketable. He plans on returning to school eventually and getting his Master's degree in Computer Science. He likes the program at BYU so it's a good thing we live in Utah County- at it appears we will be for awhile. As of now, it will probably not happen until I am done with my nursing degree or until he finds a job that has tuition reimbursement to help pay for the cost.
And finally...we are thrilled and anxious to be meeting with LDS Family Services on September 7 for an adoption orientation meeting. That's right we are going to adopt. We aren't sure what to expect except that we will get the paperwork to start filling it out. It can take up to a year and more to have a child placed but we are looking forward to the road ahead and the experiences we will have and the opportunity to meet birth mothers and welcoming a baby into our home.
I have the unique opportunity to occasionally take care of birth mothers placing their babies for adoption at the hospital and it never short of extraordinary seeing the love those women have for their babies and what a sacrifice they are making to give those children a better life. I am so grateful that adoption is an option for us and that we will be starting the process soon. So with all of that said we would appreciate your prayers and letting anyone you may know that we want to add to our family through adoption.
Until next time...
Friday, August 12, 2011
Grandma's Bible
Aunt Katie brought a bunch of treasures from grandma's house with her to Salmon last weekend. It was such a treat to look through and remember grandma using some of the things that were there and see pictures that brought back so many memories. Aunt Katie was so generous to let us look through the things that she brought and let us take our pick of the things that were there- a priceless treasure to have an opportunity like that. I have many wonderful things that I am so thrilled to have that bring back so many memories from childhood. I have several treasures and can't express enough gratitude to my Aunt Katie and her willingness to share these treasures with all of us!
However, the purpose of this post is about my grandma's Bible. I know it may sound silly but I never knew my grandma had a Bible because she never had it out nor did she preach to us in the traditional sense. She did teach us how to treat each other in her actions and words...such an amazing woman! I really wish that I could sit down and talk to her on these days that I struggle- she had such an amazing ability to calm my heart and mind.
Grandma was raised Catholic and was a practicing Catholic until an unfortunate interaction with a priest when she lived in Pocatello. I remember her telling me this story many times and how she was so shocked but the questions she was being asked about her relationship with grandpa and she always ended the story by saying "I'm not sure that old goat wasn't going to try and ask me on a date!" I was always shocked to hear the story but always laughed when she told it too. The sad part of the story is that such an important part of grandma's life had a door closed because of that single interaction. Grandma always taught me that going to church and being religious are not mutually exclusive. She always said she "had a little church in her heart." Her little church taught of love, acceptance and turning the other cheek...oh to be like my grandmother. In reality, my grandma was a woman with a prayer on her heart at all times. There were things that weighed heavy on her mind and heart and as much as we liked to tease her (and for good reason) that she worried too much I like to think she turned many of her worries over to God.
Anyway, while Aunt Katie and Uncle David were cleaning out grandma's house earlier this summer they found grandma's Bible with her name "Lois Ann" imprinted on it. They also found her rosary beads. I didn't know it until last weekend but grandma had requested at one point to be buried with her Bible but no one knew where it was. Well it is now found and luckily we were able to honor grandma's request.
When grandma passed in January the plot next to grandpa was selected as her final resting place. When they were digging the plot the skeletal remains of some unnamed person was found in the plot. So the decision was made to bury grandma in a plot where there would be a spot to move grandpa later so they could be side by side which meant grandpa would have to be moved. The later date to move grandpa was this past Monday. Aunt Katie made the trip to Dubois and placed grandma's Bible and rosary beads on top of grandpa's burial vault to be buried next to grandma. I can't help but believe that she would be pleased with how it all worked out.
Until next time...
Sullivan Family Float Trip 2011
Last weekend was the 3rd Annual Sullivan Family Float Trip in Carmen, ID. It is always such a good time to get together with the Sullivan crew!! We sure missed Jared and his family and Chad and Kaycee- hopefully the whole group will be together next year!
It was so great to get out of the city and relax with family for several days! It was the R&R that we needed. Dad and Lisa are excellent hosts and everyone has such a great time but really what isn't to enjoy about a day on the river floating on a lounge chair with a few "wild" rapids for some excitement, an awesome steak and other fantastic food and treats not to mention the good company and a little camping right by the river. We have the best family!!
These pictures have no rhyme or reason because I can't figure out how to move them into the order I want them.
It was so great to get out of the city and relax with family for several days! It was the R&R that we needed. Dad and Lisa are excellent hosts and everyone has such a great time but really what isn't to enjoy about a day on the river floating on a lounge chair with a few "wild" rapids for some excitement, an awesome steak and other fantastic food and treats not to mention the good company and a little camping right by the river. We have the best family!!
These pictures have no rhyme or reason because I can't figure out how to move them into the order I want them.
A view of Carmen/Salmon from the top of the mountain behind the house...BEAUTIFUL!
Getting directions and playing some basketball before taking the ATV's to see the valley from the top of the mountain. It was beautiful but scary ride- we didn't make it all the way to the top because Tiff and I chickened out. JD asked Dad to take him back up all the way to the top next time we visit.
Dad had a little buddy named "R" during the weekend. He asked to go for a ride on the tra-tor so what is a good grandpa to do but take the little cutie for a ride. "R" went out several times on the Gator to check the cows in the pasture below the house with grandpa too...he loved it.
I wish I would have snapped a picture or two of that because it was the cutest thing to see that little guy in the seat next to grandpa. Oh the memories both grandpa and "R" are going to have!
Gathered around the table just relaxing after the river and before a fantastic steak!JD, Cody, Kylie, Uncle David, Drew
Around the campfire on the island.Tiff with "T", Ryan, Lisa and Dad
The whole crew after spending a day on the Salmon River(even the youngest at 3 months was on the river and he was a trooper)
Dad had shirts printed (what a fun idea) to remember the weekend.
Seriously, the best weekend which made the 7 hour trip back to Utah and reality that much more difficult. JD and I camped by the river the first night. I don't know that I slept more than a few hours because I was convinced that a bear was going to attack us while we were sleeping and every noise I heard I was sure was that bear crossing the river to "get us". Keep in mind that dad and Lisa have never told us they have seen a bear on or near the island where we were camped but we are in the mountains and no doubt there are bears in the area. Funny now but not so funny when you are literally scared stiff. The second night we stayed in the camper- I slept much better that night. Tiff and Ryan and their boys camped by the river for two nights too. Such a treat to be able to camp in the fresh mountain air.
Finally, my cousin Chad and his wife Kaycee weren't able to be there for the trip this year because they were at the hospital welcoming a new little baby boy into this crazy world. Little Ryker was born while we were floating the river on Saturday. We were yelling up and down the river to each other (it's difficult to stay together sometimes when floating on lounge chairs and tubes) about vital statistics of this cute little guy. We were able to stop by and see the newest member of the family on our way back to Utah on Monday- what a sweet little guy! Congrats to Chad and Kaycee and welcome to the newest member of this crazy, fun family!
Until next time...
Finally, my cousin Chad and his wife Kaycee weren't able to be there for the trip this year because they were at the hospital welcoming a new little baby boy into this crazy world. Little Ryker was born while we were floating the river on Saturday. We were yelling up and down the river to each other (it's difficult to stay together sometimes when floating on lounge chairs and tubes) about vital statistics of this cute little guy. We were able to stop by and see the newest member of the family on our way back to Utah on Monday- what a sweet little guy! Congrats to Chad and Kaycee and welcome to the newest member of this crazy, fun family!
Until next time...
Monday, August 1, 2011
Moving On and the path ahead
I got the call from Dr. F's office this afternoon we didn't have success with our third IUI. I have had good reason to believe that would be the result. I have been weepy since my body started telling me we weren't going to be pregnant on Saturday night at work. We decided that this would be the last treatment we were going to do- at least for awhile when I had the lengthy high dose injections and hyperstim issues during this round. We need a break from the emotional roller coaster of fertility treatments.
This has not been an easy journey individually or as a couple. I am so grateful for the good man that I am lucky enough to call my husband and eternal companion. We know that Heavenly Father has a plan for us and we will be blessed with children...eventually but most likely not in the way we once expected. We need some time to take a break from all of this and then our plan is to meet with LDS Family Services and begin the process of adoption. We know there are little ones that are supposed to join our family and hope and pray for a miracle...or two. We cannot express enough gratitude for the prayers and support that we have received from our family and friends. We love you all!
Until next time...
This has not been an easy journey individually or as a couple. I am so grateful for the good man that I am lucky enough to call my husband and eternal companion. We know that Heavenly Father has a plan for us and we will be blessed with children...eventually but most likely not in the way we once expected. We need some time to take a break from all of this and then our plan is to meet with LDS Family Services and begin the process of adoption. We know there are little ones that are supposed to join our family and hope and pray for a miracle...or two. We cannot express enough gratitude for the prayers and support that we have received from our family and friends. We love you all!
Until next time...
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Gatorade and Protien shakes
In the spirit of keeping track of what goes on during our fertility treatments I am disclosing how rotten I have felt this past week. I am actually proud of myself for making it through four days of work. I didn't do it on my own of course because I have the best husband in the world! I don't know what I would do without him.
The first two days of last week weren't so bad. In fact, I actually made the dinners that JD had requested- one that I need to get posted to my recipe blog because we liked it so much. I started not feeling so great at work on Tuesday. Each day I just felt a little bit worse- my abdomen started to feel bloated and my female parts felt like they were floating in my abdomen- weird huh- you should feel it for yourself-it is odd and not very comfortable- driving over bumps on the road is TORTURE! To say I was a little edgy by Thursday/Friday at work would be an understatement because the symptoms didn't seem to be getting better no matter what I did.
I told JD on Wednesday morning that if I didn't feel better by Monday I was calling Dr. F's office to see if they could give me some answers but by Thursday morning I felt like I better make a call.
They suspect based on the information that I have given them that I may have a case of ovarian hyperstimulation- FANTASTIC...not! I was told to drink lots of fluids with electrolytes like Gatorade and drink protein shakes with 30g protein. I didn't ask why I just called JD and asked him to bring me some gatorade to work pronto. I was able to look up ovarian hyperstimulation online and it appears that it happens after the "trigger shot" of hCG- which makes a lot of sense because I felt fine until a day or so after the trigger shot. This same thing happened during IUI #2 but it wasn't as severe or uncomfortable. The good news is this doesn't mean that the IUI won't work, in fact it can be prolonged because it is the hCG that "caused" the issues and my body with start making hCG if I am pregnant. I'm actually so glad I have a job where I don't sit around a lot because right now when I sit down it causes me to not be able to breath very well- it works best if I am lying down because I can breath.
The worst part of all of this (besides feeling like a bloated cow) is that JD is worried and I can see it on his face. I can't seem to get comfortable and when I start to cry he does everything he can think of to help me be comfortable. He went shopping at Costco- on a Saturday when it seems they are the busiest-which he HATES- just to get protein shakes that I like. He bought 20 bottles of gatorade and keeps reminding me to drink it. The poor guy I'm sure feels helpless but I couldn't do this without him- how I got so lucky is a mystery to me even now.
I know this too shall pass and it will be a faint memory eventually but right now I'm going to drink some more gatorade.
Until next time...
The first two days of last week weren't so bad. In fact, I actually made the dinners that JD had requested- one that I need to get posted to my recipe blog because we liked it so much. I started not feeling so great at work on Tuesday. Each day I just felt a little bit worse- my abdomen started to feel bloated and my female parts felt like they were floating in my abdomen- weird huh- you should feel it for yourself-it is odd and not very comfortable- driving over bumps on the road is TORTURE! To say I was a little edgy by Thursday/Friday at work would be an understatement because the symptoms didn't seem to be getting better no matter what I did.
I told JD on Wednesday morning that if I didn't feel better by Monday I was calling Dr. F's office to see if they could give me some answers but by Thursday morning I felt like I better make a call.
They suspect based on the information that I have given them that I may have a case of ovarian hyperstimulation- FANTASTIC...not! I was told to drink lots of fluids with electrolytes like Gatorade and drink protein shakes with 30g protein. I didn't ask why I just called JD and asked him to bring me some gatorade to work pronto. I was able to look up ovarian hyperstimulation online and it appears that it happens after the "trigger shot" of hCG- which makes a lot of sense because I felt fine until a day or so after the trigger shot. This same thing happened during IUI #2 but it wasn't as severe or uncomfortable. The good news is this doesn't mean that the IUI won't work, in fact it can be prolonged because it is the hCG that "caused" the issues and my body with start making hCG if I am pregnant. I'm actually so glad I have a job where I don't sit around a lot because right now when I sit down it causes me to not be able to breath very well- it works best if I am lying down because I can breath.
The worst part of all of this (besides feeling like a bloated cow) is that JD is worried and I can see it on his face. I can't seem to get comfortable and when I start to cry he does everything he can think of to help me be comfortable. He went shopping at Costco- on a Saturday when it seems they are the busiest-which he HATES- just to get protein shakes that I like. He bought 20 bottles of gatorade and keeps reminding me to drink it. The poor guy I'm sure feels helpless but I couldn't do this without him- how I got so lucky is a mystery to me even now.
I know this too shall pass and it will be a faint memory eventually but right now I'm going to drink some more gatorade.
Until next time...
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